loveless

if perfect love drives out all fear, why do i still feel like i owe you something. like if i don't do everything right, or i fail a few times in obeying your commands, you will take everything beautiful in my life away....and leave me in the dust with nothing?
i don't think its you, i think its the world that makes me fear you...
sometimes i hate the world. forgive me.

i just want love. i want to love and be loved. i want to show the love that dwells inside of me. i want to love the homosexuals and prostitutes. i want to love the homeless and love the murderers. i want to love the loveless. i want to love all of those people that the world says do not deserve love. because if they don't deserve it than who says i do? i am no better than the least of these.

and to be honest... somedays i wish that i could feel loved like this. that i could really know that i am....

picture + words by jane bird